“If anyone is in Christ he is a new creation.” Easy to believe for everyone else. Difficult to believe for yourself. There have been countless times I have told people that they shouldn’t let their past rule over them because they are new creations in Christ and they are free. I totally believed it for them and wanted them to believe it for themselves.
There have also been countless times that I have unknowingly made decisions or thought certain things about myself that were driven by my past. Ultimately, I wasn’t forgiving myself. It’s easier to forgive others than ourselves. So weird huh?
A few years ago I was in somewhat of a rut. I was going to church and serving, but started to give in to some of my old ways. Needless to say, when you give the devil a millimeter you realize he’s already taken you a mile. You tippy toe that line and he grabs you by the arm and yanks you in. I thought to myself, “How could I have done this again? I should know better. I’m such a disgrace, I don’t deserve to live.”